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June 11th, 2008

It's been awhile... @ 12:46 am

So work has turned into a life consuming endeavor. To top it off I have pneumonia right now. So it seems that I get it every 2 years in June, nice trend I'm starting.
Anyway, Work is still cool, just stressful as heck. Still counting the days till Tim's RnR, still have 3 months to wait for that. The kids are good cause they are out for summer break. And last but not least I had to put one of my dogs down cause he attacked my son... Matt is fine, but it was really hard to do that to an animal that was just doing what is in his nature to do. So my rotty is lonely and doesn't seem to know what to do anymore without big brother to show him. He even forgot how to sit to get his cookie. Poor thing.

Hope all is well with everyone.

March 4th, 2008

work @ 10:05 pm

Current Mood: grumpy grumpy

So I did my first write up. It was interesting, I have never been on the other side of the table. She was basically told the only reason she wasn't fired was because we are short staffed, I can't imagine that was easy to hear. On the other hand obviously there was something there to warrant the write up so tears and pity will only get you so far.

February 27th, 2008

Things are getting better... @ 10:30 pm

Current Mood: anxious anxious
Current Music: Beautiful Wreck - Shawn Mullins

Ah, I feel like a head case lately sorry for that. I think there are smoother waters ahead. Matt started a new school and is starting to do a little better, I fear not enough to pass the 7th grade but the motivation is coming back, slowly is better then nothing.
My birthday was on Monday so I'm another year older but I actually got a promotion at work on the same day!  Which is why I am not posting this same comment in my "myspace", half the people there are my co-workers. Only being there 9 months and have been promoted to their supervisor pissed them off, but to top it off I actually had to become a supervisor... In my 3 days so far I have managed to piss off QA's who were above me and acted like it before, now I am above them and have made some much needed changes already to how they do their work. The Trainer hates me already for pointing out the obvious mistakes that were going on, and the other people that I just worked with before hate me cause I have now become their mother and have to tell them to sit down, shut up and stop throwing things.
On one hand I am happy that the degree I got 5 years ago is actually being utilized finally, and there will be something on my resume to show it. On the other I have become the bad guy and seems like my managers right hand man who does all the dirty work. So there will be several future posts regarding my new found lifestyle of being in charge of people and how a nice person like me learns to deal with becoming the bitch by day.

February 4th, 2008

damn @ 09:57 am

It's official my boy got suspended today, even the principal thinks it's a good idea to have him change schools. 

January 6th, 2008

WoW @ 12:47 am

Current Music: Blue October-Sound of Pulling Heaven Down

Well I know it isn't a big deal to most and it might just make the eyes roll of my readers, but I got my first character to level 70 today so ya me.
Not as grand as I thought it would be when I was just starting out but whatever, maybe cause it seems like the politics are kicking in and it's almost annoying already.

December 31st, 2007

Happy New Years @ 09:55 pm


Happy New years everyone!!! Sorry it's not an original greeting, but it's all I got right now. People should have more New Years parties. I suppose it's the small town thing. 

December 12th, 2007

Wow @ 09:45 pm

Current Mood: calm calm
Current Music: You make me smile

Okay, I know that I had indicated in my last post that it had been awhile since I written anything, but I didn't realize how close to the truth that statement was. It was only 2 years but now it feels like a lifetime. I figured if I am going to start "journaling" again I should delete everything from the past and start fresh. Well since LJ isn't as high tech as some things the only way I could figure to do it was one at a time.
It was interesting. I learned that I really was crazy. If 2 years away from that mess has taught me anything it's that the past needs to remain the past no matter what and if you can't get over it the only thing to do it totally separate yourself from anything that won't let you move on and let go. Let the other person waste their life on it.
Someone once told me that anger is an emotion that only belongs to you, why people feel the need to share and spread that emotion is their own problem.  Suck it up-drive on.

December 11th, 2007

Is this thing on?? @ 11:15 pm

Current Mood: calm calm
Current Music: Blue October - Quiet Mind

Wow it has been almost 2 years since I said anything in here, strange where the time went. I really did get wrapped up in the myspace thing. I still like myspace though, it's more my speed and easier to make and keep in touch with friends that way but on the other hand it is being over run with runts and spammers, kinda like WoW.

So the past couple years have been interesting, lots of much needed growing up. Still smoke and drink on occasion, grew my hair out, gained a couple dozen pounds. I keep in touch with people alot less and made some new pretty superficial friends (just what I needed) not on purpose of course... I still have many parts of my past that I avoid whenever possible, but at least I know there is nothing I can do about it so why bother fretting about it.

Living in a part of AZ I never dreamed of has been a welcome surprise. It's beautiful here and snowing in December like it should. I now work in the telecom industry of all things, who knew. Compared to some of my previous jobs it's great, it works and they respect me, so what else could I ask for. Plus it's a small town and the only people I meet are co-workers and they are normal people in normal relationships, which are NOT the kind of friends that I normally attract. If you knew me in TN you know what I'm talking about, but on the other hand if you knew me in TN I wouldn't be talking to you anymore cause you were the head cases in my life that I can do without.

My free time is still consumed by movies, music and the computer, though on the computer means I am on WoW, cause it's just the most awesomest thing out there right now and I'm sure it will get old after awhile but in the past year it has been a nice past time.

I wish I was a more sociable person, yanno the type I'm talking about, but I'm not and since I have been this way for so long, it kinda just seems like to much work to play nice. Does it make me a bad person that I don't care about people having babies or when those babies have their birthdays? I suppose it does, but I deserve it, I have had real friends that actually cared about stuff in my life and visa versa and I have had fake friends. I think that I am a fake friend to mostly everyone around me know adays. I could honestly say there are some people that I would do anything for if they were back in my immediate life, but I suppose as you "grow up" geography is always the friendship ender. The greatest friends I have right now are both 22 year old -girls- without any real history to their lives and though I could listen to them all day, assuming I have the patience to listen to them go on and on, I still think I am a fake friend to them. Isn't that just awful that the reality of life is that if you are the "listener" natured person no one knows anything about YOU and let me tell you if you are the other type that wears on a person after awhile and that is why they disappear out of your life and blow off your phone calls, because they don't want to snap and "offend" you. We are just to nice to do that.

Anyway I know the last paragraph was all rambling but "listeners" need to vent sometimes, even if no one is listening.
Sleepy time....

Pisces are people too...

Even if they don't even know it!