Current Music: Blue October - Quiet Mind
Wow it has been almost 2 years since I said anything in here, strange where the time went. I really did get wrapped up in the myspace thing. I still like myspace though, it's more my speed and easier to make and keep in touch with friends that way but on the other hand it is being over run with runts and spammers, kinda like WoW.
So the past couple years have been interesting, lots of much needed growing up. Still smoke and drink on occasion, grew my hair out, gained a couple dozen pounds. I keep in touch with people alot less and made some new pretty superficial friends (just what I needed) not on purpose of course... I still have many parts of my past that I avoid whenever possible, but at least I know there is nothing I can do about it so why bother fretting about it.
Living in a part of AZ I never dreamed of has been a welcome surprise. It's beautiful here and snowing in December like it should. I now work in the telecom industry of all things, who knew. Compared to some of my previous jobs it's great, it works and they respect me, so what else could I ask for. Plus it's a small town and the only people I meet are co-workers and they are normal people in normal relationships, which are NOT the kind of friends that I normally attract. If you knew me in TN you know what I'm talking about, but on the other hand if you knew me in TN I wouldn't be talking to you anymore cause you were the head cases in my life that I can do without.
My free time is still consumed by movies, music and the computer, though on the computer means I am on WoW, cause it's just the most awesomest thing out there right now and I'm sure it will get old after awhile but in the past year it has been a nice past time.
I wish I was a more sociable person, yanno the type I'm talking about, but I'm not and since I have been this way for so long, it kinda just seems like to much work to play nice. Does it make me a bad person that I don't care about people having babies or when those babies have their birthdays? I suppose it does, but I deserve it, I have had real friends that actually cared about stuff in my life and visa versa and I have had fake friends. I think that I am a fake friend to mostly everyone around me know adays. I could honestly say there are some people that I would do anything for if they were back in my immediate life, but I suppose as you "grow up" geography is always the friendship ender. The greatest friends I have right now are both 22 year old -girls- without any real history to their lives and though I could listen to them all day, assuming I have the patience to listen to them go on and on, I still think I am a fake friend to them. Isn't that just awful that the reality of life is that if you are the "listener" natured person no one knows anything about YOU and let me tell you if you are the other type that wears on a person after awhile and that is why they disappear out of your life and blow off your phone calls, because they don't want to snap and "offend" you. We are just to nice to do that.
Anyway I know the last paragraph was all rambling but "listeners" need to vent sometimes, even if no one is listening.